The Process- Documentation Begins

So now that we’re approaching a year of trying to get pregnant, I thought I should start documenting. Mostly to help me process. Sometimes, I float through life passively which gives the impression I’m doing well. I even fool myself most of the time. However, when “floating” I’m also not trusting God for anything nor am I embracing my hopes, without hope my heart is hard and bitter. Last July (2009) Nathan and I took our dream trip to Italy. The big question was start “trying” before we went on the trip or just wait until after, due to fear that I’d be sick and miserable on this dream vacation. HA! What a joke. Little did we know that almost a year later there would still be no baby. I also didn’t know that I could face one of my biggest fears and “be ok” with God’s grace. To say He’s taught me a lot is a serious understatement. We did decide to “try” in June 2009, then July, then August, then…until November 2009 when I made an appointment to see my GYN.
*November 2009 we began going in for sonograms to check my follicles every month.
*January 2010 we discovered I’m not ovulating on my own so we started Metphormin (1/18/10). Really tired, really anxious. pretty depressed from medicine.
*February no sonogram just letting medicine get in system.
*March – sonogram reveals follicles are about the same size (on the small size). Get first shot to trigger ovulation. Blood work on Monday (3/22/10) confirms shot did work and I did indeed ovulate, first time in the process.
*April 15 another sonogram (no follicle improvement, but length of cycle shortens by 6 days) and 2nd ovulation trigger shot.
*April 28- negative pregnancy test and consider getting off medicine.
*May 4, 2010- decide to take a break from medicine/doctor as I am going insane on meds. Nathan strongly concurs. :)

Fall in Georgia

I didn't think I was ready for fall yet. I love summer...sun dresses, laying out, never being cold, vacation, and of course the beach. It's always a little sad for me to say goodbye, but I have been loving fall this year. Nathan and I have gotten outside for concerts and farmers markets in downtown Norcross, a weekend with good friends in the mountains of North Georgia, runs at Big Creek, and soon we're planning a high school football outing! Fall might be Nathan's favorite time of the year. (tied with dead of winter:). He loves cold weather because he can pull out all of his fleeces and sweaters, dream of camping and hiking. I think it takes him back to his days in Tibet. I love experiencing his joys. I love that he enjoys adventure and does such a great job of praising God for His creation. I love this man and am so thankful I can spend my life with him. On a spiritual note, God is teaching me a lot. It's hard. Look forward to being in His presence so the hurt will be over, but honestly I want babies first.

When can I see you again

Gosh! I'm really missing Nathan. Thank the Lord for my mom. She is coming into town as I'm writing this to be with me until Monday. I'm so thankful for her. I'm really looking forward to hanging out and having girl time with her. Movies, pedicures, Lots of food! I'll get back with more pictures from last weekend. I got to visit MS and see my precious nephews finally. They are SO cute. Rob has to be the smartest, best behaved, most beautiful, and kindest 7 year old that has ever lived. And there is not a shread of partiality in that statement. Rob spent the night with us on Friday and I read him the story of Samson. Definitely forgot how brutal that story is. I kept having to fill in words...like Samson married a prostitute (a lady), they gauged out Samson's eyes (they were very mean to Samson). Luckily I got him a children's Biblestory book that sensors a bit. Reese is just the most precous butter ball. There is just something about a baby smiling at you that makes the world disappear for a minute. It's such a gift.

Uganda

Nathan is in Uganda right now with EMI (Engineering Ministries International) doing site design work for a new school in Masaka. The Christian facility will be called the Timothy Center and will offer the following programs: Senior Girl's High School (A-Levels - S5&6), Teacher Training, Christian school resource centre, Leadership Training, Enterpreneurship development, Sustainable farming, Guest House, and Strategic partnerships. Nathan will be mostly involved in the sustainable farming side as he will design the fish ponds and some other water/wastewater projects. I'm missing him SO much, but I'm also so excited for him. Nathan loves travel and being a part of new cultures. Praise the Lord he is an adventurous man and really thrives in that type of atmosphere. I'm looking forward to posting again about his trip and sharing pictures. I pray God will bring him home safely. I'm longing to hug him. :) The first picture is a precious Ugandan girl and the second is the site where they will be building the school after Nathan's team finishes the design.

Smile--My Wednesday Wish List

If these don't make you smile, I don't know what will. This is my Wednesday Wish List summed up on photos. I can't wait to get my hands on these boys!!!

Wednesday Wish List

I've got to do better on blogging. I can't seem to get my pictures and time to blog together at the same time. We had Nathan's family up for the weekend to celebrate Nathan and Kendall's birthdays. His generous parents took us to a very nice dinner and treated us to putt-putt golf. Very fun. I'll try to post pics later. Ok. Now to the wish list.

1. TO GO TO BOONEVILLE!! I'm desperately suffering from homesickness. I want to be with my family and see my nephews so badly! Plus my Meme is at my house right now and I haven't seen Stephanie since she returned from Vanderbilt. Guess God is teaching me to wait and that longing for things is really good for me just as I am longing to see His Face!



2. A Stand Mixer. I've put a picture of a Kitchen Aid because they are most popular but I'd be happy with any stand mixer.



3. This really great lamp from Anthropology...sadly out of the budget, but that's my this is a "wish list" right?

Happy Wednesday!

THE DATE

Nathan surprised me by taking me to have drinks and appetizers (maybe my favorite thing to do) at Gordon Biersch downtown then to a movie at the Fox. So fun!! We saw The Proposal. Such a great romantic comedy if you haven' t seen it. Plus, the atmosphere at The Fox is so fun for a movie. It's really laid-back and lively. I literally laughed out loud so many times in the movie and was in tears at one point. Not something that would usually happen in a "normal" theatre. It was SO fun. Such a great surprise! Sadly we left the camera at home, but we ran into some friends who took a picture of us at the Fox so hopefully I can get it from them soon.